السلام عليكم brothers and sisters..
since 2 months i have been having terrible waswasas. i thought i was losing my mind when i 1st joined SF. but alhumdulillah alot of ppl here are helping and guiding me. it has helped alot. waswasas are there but i am able to fight them. but i am NEVER waswasa free.
my problem these days is that i fear Allah is not happy with me.
i was not a good daughter few years ago.. not talking to parents for months was a easy deal but i have been trying to change since last 18 months. i keep trying but sometimes i feel like i will never be able to erase those memories from my parents mind. its heartbreaking. i have the most amazing parents one could hope for yet i have been a terrible daughter. sometimes i feel like i can never correct my mistakes because i will never be able take back my words. i really do hate myself sometimes. what should i do?
plus these days if i unintentionally or intentionally do something wrong it gets very difficult for me to get over them. i keep thinking about the sin that i have committed. the entire day i keep thinking is this wrong? is this allowed? sometimes i just dont do things just because i have no knowledge about them.
ps: please try not to compliment me about anything. i know some sisters here are very sweet and always find something nice to say but right now i dont think i am worthy of any praises.
since 2 months i have been having terrible waswasas. i thought i was losing my mind when i 1st joined SF. but alhumdulillah alot of ppl here are helping and guiding me. it has helped alot. waswasas are there but i am able to fight them. but i am NEVER waswasa free.
my problem these days is that i fear Allah is not happy with me.
i was not a good daughter few years ago.. not talking to parents for months was a easy deal but i have been trying to change since last 18 months. i keep trying but sometimes i feel like i will never be able to erase those memories from my parents mind. its heartbreaking. i have the most amazing parents one could hope for yet i have been a terrible daughter. sometimes i feel like i can never correct my mistakes because i will never be able take back my words. i really do hate myself sometimes. what should i do?
plus these days if i unintentionally or intentionally do something wrong it gets very difficult for me to get over them. i keep thinking about the sin that i have committed. the entire day i keep thinking is this wrong? is this allowed? sometimes i just dont do things just because i have no knowledge about them.
ps: please try not to compliment me about anything. i know some sisters here are very sweet and always find something nice to say but right now i dont think i am worthy of any praises.